had good fun!!

phew,tis week was really interesting and tiring too....had our LEO BOD after party at red box...i dunno if u guys had fun but as far as i know,i've never seen u guys goin crazy singing n stuff...i know i had a whole lotta fun tho...haha..da food was da turn off..but im happy everythin went as planned...celebrated wern sern's b'day there too....fooled him twice with da drinks n da cake...haha..ur a real clown dude but cool..happy 4 u mate....thanks to allie n wit ryans help,i managed not 2 burn da piece of cake....hehehe...after karaoke we chilled in pyramid...ryan tak habis habis wit da dancing machine....haha..but he's good la...then we decided 2 call it a day coz i was sooooo tired and so were da rest....allie looked like she was gonna pengsan...haha,DOT as usual goin red face..kekeke...but overall,we all had fun..oh yea,thanks to ban leng for driving us 2 pyramid...im not used 2 driving wit 5 ppl in da car....haha..excuses excuses..sigh*...really sori if i complicated things wit transportation 2 pyramid..dunno wat happened but my bad aight..haha.

I went 2 the curve and ikano again tis week...they were having an adoption drive for animals at da Pet Safari in Ikano...saw 3 most adorable puppies and da best part,da adoption was free...i wanted 2 take 1 home but my mom didnt let...well da reason,we still haven't recovered from da death from my previous doggy...sigh*..but i jas couldnt let go tis lil puppy...sooo cute..hahaha..nvm la,there's always another time....i went back 2 da bar called California Jazz...had a good coffe there n there was a different guy playin da piano but just as good.

Haizzz,im soooooo bored rite now..jas finished watchin ROCKY 1,2,3,4,5...dats wat i call movie marathon..haha...i realised after watchin rocky,i can feel my spirit's on fire..motivated 2 do wat i really wanted 2 do..."im gonna pump my fist coz im ready for tis"...all geared up for Rocky Balboa,da 6th part comin out soon...cool...started training boxing again...a real torture to my hand but its soooo good 2 release my anger...alot of ppl are testing my patience but im cool...i dun hate but then again..
' I trained like the 'Animal', I eat like the 'Animal', I live like the 'Animal'..y the 'animal'?well to potong stim, gurls have alot of nick names for me..wan me to tell out?wahaha,okok..i've been named Fluffy,joe da cute Pony..sigh*..atleast gimme sumthin ganas la...i oso dunno wat but all dat sounds sissy...haizzz..beast oso can...coz da Beast drives da real Beast.. my car telan petrol...haha..ok la,gonna sleep..wanna get some beauty sleep...lalala***

ps: somehow,im kinda hooked on romantic n nice chinese songs at da moment..its cool tho,sumthin different la.

Eat Eat Eat!!

GREAT!!!!..i really gonna kill da fella dat started da virus dat infected all msn users yesterday...it really spoilt my day...but nvm bout dat...i had a good deepavali weekend...haha..on saturday i had brealfast,lunch n dinner at friends hse for deepavali...damn,i ate ALOT....hehe..after lunch me n da guys wen for 3 hours of Counter Strike...it was damn cool...then after dinner we went 2 play crackers at da field...i din realise allie was doin her homework n being dstubed by da sounds of crackers...haha..SOWEE allie...i reached home wit a slight tummy ache...ate 2much i think..haha.

Sunday was a good day...after church me n my family wen 2 the curve for lunch...while my mom sis wen shopping me n my dad wen 2 this beautiful place called California Jazz...its like a mini bar but da best part was dat there was tis guy playin piano in da bar and he was damn good..da songs r superb...for all those couples out there,if u wan 2 take ur gurl or guy out go to tis place n u'll get a pleasant suprise...its sooo romantic....after shopping i got back home...sooo tired but happy...in da evenin i went for CS again for another 2 hours,,crazy wei...oh did i mention dat my driving skills are improving...im slowly gettin my confidence...phew...holidays started n im not enjoyin a single moment of it....i miss all my coll mates n i need a life...our LEO BOD party oso doesnt look too good....da price is damn expensive n i keep heading 2 dead end's...HELP!!!!!im tryin my best tho...sigh*..

Today i cleaned my room n da whole hse...soooooo tired plus i kena da virus oso...really pissed off...lucky my mood ok at da moment..sigh*...need to sleep now...really tired to continue typing...haha..i need FOOD...thank goodness raya coming edi...MAKAN time again...*zzzzzzzz

(somehow i miss being emo....its like everythin is cramped up n building inside me...how 2 let it go??its not dat i cant but i dun wanna go back being low again...need every single energy 2 motivate me)

driving!!..woohoo!

its nearly da end of week edi..wow,dats really fast..hehe..things seem much better for me at da moment..just started driving to college n i made it back in one piece...haha..no,i dun wanna scare u guys out there..but im a gud driver...atleast i try to be la..hahaha..no worries..went to watch John Tucker Must DIE just now wit sarah,i lyn,boon and ryan...its a good movie but i gotta admit certain parts are slow n sleepy...but overall its nice la...came back after dat just 2 beat da jam near my hse....n now i gtg go back coll 2 meet up wit da rest of da guys....celebrating sie ming's birthday later at night...soooo tired now...sigh*

" i keep thinking of you....there's no pain coz my heart turned stone...now...As i walk through da valley of darkness,da only figure is see is mine....i see light beyond me but to get there,my walk will be with heavy footsteps but i know dat caring people will help me....and i know dat YOU will hold my hand...when ur down ill hold u up,never letting go....dun worry coz i'll be right here waiting for you"

PAIN PAIN PAIN!!!

I had da best weekend tis week...got my results n i did better than i imagined..thanks god for dat..i celebrated by joining 2 sweet gurls for dinner and fun fair at 1 utama...we had dinner twice at nando's...yum yummy..then it was time 4 da fun fair rides....entry was RM3 and every ride cost an average of 6-8 bucks..yeah,its damn expensive but since we were there,might as well enjoy watever we can rite..hehe..1st we went on da ferries wheel...supposed 2 be romantic but we camwhore till it got boring..then we went 4 a scarier ride..called da TOP GUN..big mistake...it was 2much 4 me 2 handle after eating dinner twice..haha,i had 2 control my puke...in other words control macho la...after dat went 2 smaller stalls...won some prize for laling n she was happy with da teddy..haha...da last ride we took is called VORTEX...warning: really NOT for da faint hearted...its seriously scary..me n laling were screamin our lungs coz it was goin 360 non stop plus our seat moved 360 too...so u can imagine da feeling...hahaha..again,i had 2 control my puke....decided 2 call it a day since it was 11pm edi...i was dizzy n high...da moment i reached home,i KO'ED on my bed....closed my eyes n da next thing i know,my alarm went off....OH NO,time 2 go church in da morning....i oni slept for 5 hours n felt like crap at church...but lucky i can stand steady....hahaha...

now da PAIN PART...hehe..i was sleepin like a baby wen suddenly i rolled down my bed..more like i fell off from my 2 deck bed..landed on my left shoulder...OUCH!!!!!!!!..broke part of my door and my wall..dun ask how..i oso dunno..haha.....it wasnt pain at 1st but later slowly started la...now even as i type,i really cant stand da pain..arrrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!....feel like biting or jas banging sumthing now....hahaha...mummy massaged my shoulders and i feel better....at da moment la...sigh*...1st dizzyness n now pain...but its ok..im a MAN...can take any pain...right....sob* sob*....im not cryin ok....kekekeke

ok la,dats it 4 now...i betul betul cannot tahan...oh yea,i wont be seeing dat sumone anymore for da time being...so bz n goin off 2 aussie..well,i wish u all da best gurl...gud luck then...gonna miss ya...uhuhuh..so lonely now..sob*sob*...no one 2 teman me anymore....OUCH!!! real pain now..i wan my mummy....hahaha.jokin la,im strong ok....peace out~

sigh....its da end of da week edi n everything seems 2 be movin so fast....days are just flying by and i cant seem 2 keep up with it..sumone please help...ahhaha..classes started edi and im enjoying every moment of it..why?there was only 1 class tis week out of 4 days of classes...not good but i love it....wakakaka...2day was jas another day..went 2 coll for nothin then me n another fren drove up to terminal 3 subang airport..there's good sale there for sports stuffs...u guys should check it out b4 da stocks are cleared....theres da adidas COOLCLIMAX shoes goin 4 a flat price of 50 bucks....damn cun sumore but if oni i had my $$$ wit me...sigh***everything was so cool there but haizzz...nvm la...oh,results are out 2moro and i wont take it yet..wanna collect on monday oni.

i realised i wont be living in malaysian in da future....its just a feeling i have coz sumthin tells me my dad doesnt wan me 2 live here..dunno why but i hope it comes true...haha,i was supposed 2 follow my cousin 2 UK after spm but missed da chance..4 times edi n im cursing myself 4 not goin....dun ask me why...hahaha..but like i said,its just a feeling la.

Now i oni care bout da people dat are around me n dats good enough...havin people dat are close 2 me or just even a normal friend makes me appreciate life,love and friendship more and more each day...we all will go through hell in our lives but since wen life was fair...we gotta pick ourselves up n stop whining of da past..stick 2 da present n prepare for da future....i cant stand people who jas waste their time waiting 4 a golden rain drop or they think life would be better even if things are bad for them.....how are u gonna make it in life if u dun move from where u are now?...dun be a jackass n let people take advantage for ur kindness....stop dreaming n start living...this is wat i told myself 4 da past 1 week.....its sumthing i learned from painful memories....no more emo joel but a more matured guy who can think n handle everything like a real man......no more being timid but wat am i now?..u can call me da PLAYER...not as in playin gurls la...wakakakaka...sick la...ill explain next blog.

~joel~
ps: will u marry me?tis is wat im gonna ask my lucky gurl...stop playing hide seek wit me la....sigh***

Welcoming back the legend

yeah!!!!!! Finally i got back my car...haizzz,its been a month in da workshop...finally i get 2 hold my 'baby'..tee hee...yea,if u noticed im much more lively although things are not gettin better...why?well,i realised dat i've been emo for the past 2 months...i dun simply emo....1st,my car masuk workshop n i had 2 walk back from coll everyday..then there was my finals...later,i can see dat da gurl that stole my heart is falling for someone else...last week my coach told me i lost 5 pounds of muscle...n dats alot...there's alot more problems dat i had 2 go through but finally i got back 2 my senses....someone told me dat most SEGi guys like 2 emo n i cant agree more..tee hee..but then rite,ur da 1 dat brought me back 2 my senses and i gotta thank u for dat...kekeke...im working my way back 2 da top n there's no stopping me....unless,um...i cant say it yet but we'll just have 2 see where tis goes.

Today,after church me n da rest of our choir group wen 4 makan...i had da best Hakka mee in subang...it was damn good that i ate twice..mind u dat i had 'big' portions....haha..real pig...i was happy coz i gotta see my old flame back again...its been 9 months since we've spoken 2 each other after some sad tragedy which happened infront of pyramid...haizzz....but now we okok edi...i didnt speak much but im happy 4 her being wit her new boyfriend...she still has her cheeky smile..hehe....anywayz,wen i got back i slept for bout 5 hours....tee hee...dad woke me up n said dat my car is ready 2 b picked up....FINALLY i said...Later i gotta meet up wit da guys in my youth group 2 discuss our year end trip 2 pangkor....if it doesnt work i feel like killin myself...haizzz...whoever said being a youth leader would be easy....haha

watever it is,my sorrows are goin away little by little....n i gotta thank certain people for helpin with me...laling got back her 'stone heart' n im glad 4 dat...no more timid lil gurl edi..tee hee...i hope dat me,u,shan n adeline can go for da fun fair next saturday in 1 utama....i wanna see u guys pukin out watever ya'll ate b4 da rides...wakakaka...sigh,coll startin 2moro n im looking forward 4 it..rite..n i gotta go now..but b4 dat,i dedicate a verse of a song 2 da gurl dat left me standing alone..broken n torn but still strong..in january.

kasihku,sampai disini
kisah kita,jangan tangisi keadannya,
bukan kerana kita berbeza.

dengarkan,dengarkan lagu,lagu ini
melodi rintihan hati ini,
kisah kita berakhir di januari

thanks for bringin me back 2 my senses...tee hee...till then..peace~

A light in the darkness

now i got a reason 2 smile 4 da moment...it all started in da afternoon..i was walkin back after chillin wit daniel in piramid...went all da way there jas 2 buy dunkin doughnuts..now dats wat i call 'nuts'..hehe...but thx 4 da choc doughnut ya..i was outside my hse n i realized i 4got my hse key...damn..nobody was at home coz my mom n sis went 2 1 utama...so i had 2 walk all da way back 2 coll...call me crazy coz it was a 1 hour journey back...crap..i decided 2 stop by 7-11 in usj4 n get a slurpee..damn thirsty sumore...then there was tis guy who stopped me on his bike as i was jas about 2 enter 7-11...he was kinda shy 2 talk at 1st n he asked if i could speak in tamil since he was indian..bein a 'mangosteen' i cant speak..hehe...he said he was lost in subang n supposed 2 be in shah alam...he had a flat tyre n his petrol tank was empty...then i could see dat his eyes was kinda wattery n he was seriously shy 2 talk..he needed spare cash 2 change his tyre n fill his tank as he had only 30 cents wit him...he didnt beg or anythin but asked really politely 4 sum spare cash...i didnt noe 2 believe him but i can see his truthfullnes in his eyes...he needed rm8 2 change tyre n rm3 2 fill up petrol....i took out my wallet coz i wanted 2 help but then guess wat?..i only had 3 bucks in it...i 4got 2 reload my cash in da mornin...oh crap...so i told him i couldnt help him n he said thanks 4 listenin n trustin him...he really appreciated my patience listenin 2 him....as i turned 2 walk away,sumthin pulled me back....i ran n called him back....i said 'hey dude,tho i only have 3 bucks it should be able 2 fill ur petrol tank n find some help wit ur tyre...then he said wat about u?u need da cash 2 get some drink rite?..then i told him,i dun need money 2 get back home or get da 'slurpee'...da slurpee can wait but u need 2 get help wit ur tyre...so i took out my last n only 3 bucks n gave him....he kept on sayin thanks coz b4 tis wen he asked a chinese lady 4 help,she told him 2 get lost....how can human beings like da lady live on earth?haizzz....then he told me 2 meet me back here same place n same time so he can pass da money back....i told him its ok....no need 2 return...jas give n take rite? n he thanked me 4 not scoldin him..poor guy....then after dat i continued my journey back 2 my frens hse near coll since i was broke...hehe..but all da way there,i was smilin coz i managed 2 help sum1....dat really made my day...thank god 4 dat.
" wen times r down,u jas gotta find a pillar and lean on it....a strong pillar will hold u n let u pour out all ur misery on it....if things get harder each day,u'll noe dat im here for u guys no matter wat....each one of us are here 4 a reason...only ur heart can tell u wat da reason is."

not as what it seems

hmm...its been awhile since i continued bloggin...okies,da month of september was kinda bad 4 me n da people dat were close 2 me...i dunno how 2 put it but through out tis month, i felt like i lost some people dat truly cared bout me....i can jas feel it...not dat i wanna b emo all but da past events da happened in da last week of september changed my life sumhow....ok,lemme start wit my finals 1st....truthfullyi wasnt really prepared 4 it but i noe i did my best n jas gotta hope 4 da best 2....after my finals,i was geared up 4 parties n jas chillin out wit frens but then it turned out no parties n most of us r jas scattered around......haizzz...
nvm la,dat aside....last friday was a day 2 4get.....me n my best frens wen 2 1 utama 2 have dinner...we were celebrating a b'day n also a goin away party...everythin was goin well...had 3 large pizzas for dinner n felt like pukin after dat....da plan was 2 go 4 movies after dinner but then its was scraped n we went 2 cabana club in summit....bad idea..da biggest mistake...its was supposed 2 b a joyous occasion but things turned out really sour...i nearly lost my 13 year friendship wit my best mate....imagine gettin an innocent soul drunk jas 4 da fun of it....it was da 1st time dat i totally lost my head......but then,me bein a patient n understandin guy jas laughed da fight off n helped tis soul regain concious....it jas wasnt meant 2 b....plus da situation was freakin bad dat i kinda cried in da club toilet coz i failed 2 protect sum1 dat i cared 4..see,im straightforward n dun hide things.
after dat nite,things looked better 4 awhile durin our LEO installation in coll....everythin was cool...da event was great n bein da secruity wasnt bad either...hehe....my 'laling' made it tho she wasnt feelin well...really appreciate u comin 4 da installation gurl...our BOD performance was cool 2...n me bein hyper on da drums kinda screwed up abit...I nearly dropped da stick while playin...damn...hehe...my bad...overall,da whole event was superb n im proud 2 have all da BOD members as my close frens includin members....hurray 2 sabrina,yue mei,DOT,allie,sarah,miling,ban leng,wern sern,ryan, da pain in de ass daniel,da other members n me ofcourse...tee heee....
gotta stop here 4 da moment,will return wit more emo contents in da next post n how chane is takin place....both happy n sad...really sad.